從前的故事

这是我给1101真正的话。当我刊出這篇話，就是我完全放下你，不再以心中的人來在意你过后。

认识你让我的生活，我的习惯改变了很多。在我所遇到过的女生中，我对你的感情都是最深的，要不然我也不会这么坚持的跟家族呆在一起。在家族呆久了，我习惯了家族的感觉。同时，爱你这回事慢慢地融入我的潜意识，我不知不觉的对你特别好，特别关心，特别紧张。当我决定要告诉你时，我突然发现了你跟他在一起了，所以我只好装傻，装作在旅行时才发现这回事。这个沉重的打击是让我好一段时间很颓丧。

分开了一段时间，我以为对你的感情消散了，我也以为我放下你了。但是当我们再见面时，心里好像有什么东西觉醒了，那就是我对你的感情。但是那时也没什么常见面，我也不以为意，以为这只是曾经对你有感觉的反应。但是其实不是这样。在你飞之前我怕你寂寞所以常常出来陪你，然后我发觉我对你的感觉根本没有变，我从来没有放下你。所以尝试过稍微暗示你，但是过后你对我说我们不可能。那是你给我的第二次打击。你那时说我放烟幕，其实你说中了，因为我不想给你压力，但是我们的好兄弟都看在眼里了。

一年过去了，但是这次对你的感情没有消散，我常常注意你的面子书和部落格，确保你好好的。我到现在还是很恨我自己没能在你需要的时候在你身边，还好有人出现了，虽然我也很矛盾。我很了解你的能耐，但是我一直都在想念你，一直都在担心你，直到我们在飞机场拥抱的那一刻。虽然说我们都很了解对方，但是我到底都不肯定你对我是怎么样。当你在餐厅里突然抱着我，很深情的告诉我你想念我、说你刚回来我就要走时，我傻了，真的傻了。我从来不知道你竟然也是这么在意我。但是同时你还是这么的爱她，我不想然你有压力，所以我装傻，心里就想着只要你高兴就好。好兄弟也有探过我的口风，我知道如果说了，他会告诉你，到时你又会有压力，所以我装傻。但是我很肯定他已经看到他要的答案了。

到了英国之后，忙碌的生活让我没再这么挂念你，虽然心里还是很想念你。要不然，当我们在火车站见面时我也不会抱得你这么紧，这么久。我很遗憾在你到了之后不能四处跑，这里有太多东西我想给你看。但是可惜我没那个机会。到我送你走时，其实我已经到楼梯口了，但是我还想再见你所以我又跑回去，假装我只是走到你看不到的角落，直到火车开始移动。

你当主角的那天，你不停的对我出气，但是我还是微笑着，这我也不懂为什么。我知道你的家人都不看好你和他，也知道你跟他在一起很有压力，所以我决定继续装傻。送你的那束玫瑰花；那个数目、那个颜色的意思其实我都懂。我是故意选的，我宁愿被那个老外骂也坚持要买那那束玫瑰花。你收到花时你傻了一下然后问我为什么不是送百合。我知道你在想什么但是你整班知道你和他的使得朋友都在，不想给你压力，所以我装傻。当晚你好像跟高兴的跟我谈话，其实我知道你很想坐在我隔壁的位子，跟他在一起，也看得出他也很想坐在我的位子，很希望跟你谈笑的是他。你们没这么做因为他的家人都在。所以我装傻，跟你演下去。你不想提为什么你要去美国，我也猜出来了但是我依然装傻。

第二天1120走的时候，到分叉路口的每一步都很沉重因为这可能是我最后一次见到你了。我们默默的走到那个分叉路口，你戴上了你的面具然后跟我说再见，我明白了你的心意。所以我也决定很潇洒的跟你道别，头也不回的走了。因为我知道如果我一回头，我会站着，望着你的背影直到你消失为止，然后就很可能就从此忘不了你、放不下你。

葡萄牙旅途中我也常常对你念念不忘。朋友看到你的照片都问我是不是女朋友，我都说无从解释。一路上见到的风景都希望能和你一起欣赏、希望能和你一起喝葡萄牙的Delta、希望能和你一起享受Sesseimbra的海鲜大餐、希望能和你一起庆祝新年到来、希望能和你一起在Sintra那美丽的村庄散步、希望能和你一起在Limassol的海滩吹风、希望能和你一起在Sanderman的酒庄品酒、希望能和你一起游遍Porto成。葡萄牙之旅的照片里我发现我的笑容少了什么……那就是你在我身边的快乐。

伦敦回来之后三个月了，我还是放不下你。我对你太认真、太投入，甚至比对佩芬更认真百倍。因为你是我真正的初恋，也是我的最爱。看着你在部落格的消息，知道你和他渐渐稳定了。我突然发觉我开始累了；我们既然没开始过，当然也没结束。只有放下，和忘记。这六年里对你的感情，让时间为我治疗，让我在对你继续装傻中，慢慢的放下、忘记你。

心里的话

每个人心里中有一些说不出来的话。这些话可以是梦想宣言，爱的表白，对某某人的道歉，没勇气说出来的真相……

这就是我们所谓的秘密、心事、烦恼……

有些话，永远也找不到人说。

有些话，说了也颓然。

有些话，能改变别人或自己的一生。

还有些话，听不懂的不必对他讲、听得懂的不能对她讲。所以找不到听得懂的人讲。

这些话，只能放在心里的那个角落，然后继续收集。等这个角落堆满了，个人又有不同的解决方法。

有些人，会开个部落格，把这些话一点、一点的对着似有似无的网民倾述。

有些人，会找个朋友，不管三七二十一的说出来。

有些人，会找另一个角落继续堆积。

有些人，会找个活动，唱K、运动、作画甚至变成工作狂，把这堆话在歌声、行动、作品、工作中宣泄出来。

还有些人，不知道要怎么处理，干脆当作没事发生。以上方法都试下，然后一边嬉皮笑脸的继续活下去。

所以，
当你看到一个人享受时，请别打扰他。这，就是他的方法。
当你看到一个人麻木时，请别怪他。因为他的那个角落，已经堆的太满了。
当你看到一个人放纵时，在适当范围内，请别制止他。因为他，就快要被这些无处可说的话，淹没了。

朋友……

朋友，你对我来说太重要了。重要到我宁愿放弃我们的可能性，来维持我们的友情。结果你却越走越远，而我，也是时候忘记，也是时候从新再来了。

The Passing

In these past two months, we’ve seen the passing of two great names of our age; Professor Dennis Ritchie, father of C programming language; and Professor John McCarthy, father of Lisp and Artificial Intelligence.

Great people are not just geniuses, but they also include the spirit of exploration and ingenuity that makes a person achieve great things that the likes of Steven Jobs will never achieve, this life or next.

Professor Dennis Ritchie invented the C language, a programming language that basically revolutionize programming languages and provided a good standard programming language for various computing machines when programming back in 70s is still, in general, a mess. This creation later became the key to the existence of the UNIX System which leads to the creation of various operating systems that later evolved into modern operating systems such as Mac and Windows. Although the language has been modified and patched across the decades since its creation to keep up with modern technologies, it remains the most widely used programming language today. One can boldly state that without C, most modern computing systems would have appeared much later.

Professor John McCarthy, is the person who coined the term “Artificial Intelligence” where so many of us casually spoken of, and whose passion in Artificial Intelligence leads him to create the Lisp programming langue which the industry eagerly adapted. The programming language later became the programming language of choice in the application of AI due to its close relation to mathematical operation. As the second oldest programming language in existence, many ideas were pioneered with Lisp such as tree data structures and dynamic typing. The professor’s various contributions in the field of Artificial Intelligence via new ideas and intuition helped the growth of the field. Without his contribution, and many other great names in AI and related fields, Siri will never have existed, Asimo will never have been created, and we could’ve never heard of the term “smart” so casually employed in every system that even barely involves AI programming.

It is sad the media pays more attention to the likes of the pirates of the Silicon Valley than inventors and creators such as these two great people whose life’s work brought countless benefits to various fields such as medicine and economics.

Let us NOT forget it was them who made our day to day technologies and our tech gadgets possible, not the pirates.

The Junction Again

I'm back at where I was 5 years ago...on the junction of choices; it's time to choose my path to future again. I've got 2 choices:

1. Get back to Malaysia, continue to work as an average monkey programmer, under the unjust and unfair system setup by some no-brainers 50 years ago and still supported by some morons now. And live my days out by just working for a salary to sustain me and my family. While doing that, I get the comfort of staying with my family and friends, in the close comforts of people I know, sharing my life with them.

2. Stay here, the place I have come to love so much, get a job or forward to PhD and probably get myself to contribute to computer science in my own capacity as a scientist while getting to live under a fairer and more just system and still get to sustain me and my family. In this case, I get to live on myself far away from what I left behind at home and call this place my new home, living my future out... alone.

I have got no quote from any great scientists or figures in history. All I had is my desires in conflict; living a selfish life in the comfort of family and friends and the possibility with my love or living a life of contributing to science in loneliness. I have never before felt so hard to choose between my path to my dream and relationship...

夜寒窗

寒风静夜，咖啡伴读。
群鸟鸣，四更过。
举头暗夜无明月，
低头续思纸中记。

322

说起你我就觉得神奇了。刚见到你的时候老是见到你板着一张脸，尤其是你那次临时上场做投影片时更是可怕，我还以为你很不高兴被学兄摆上去。但是过后在论坛废久了才很惊讶的发觉原来你很会说冷笑话，也很会废。集训的时候不管状况怎么差，你都会用很积极的态度去面对所以我很佩服你。如果不是被你那积极的态度影响到，说不定那时我已经中途放弃了。虽然没什么时间多认识你，但是我走之前发觉你很会观察别人。我载了几你次，你就说中我一直以来的心事。某种程度上来说，那也是满可怕的。但是怎么说都好，我很高兴能在那短短的日子里认识你 :)

777

当初认识你的时候后，你单调的回话方式还有认真的答案让我以为你是很严肃的。但是跟你熟悉了才发觉原来完全是另一回事！

我曾经为了一个我忘记了的理由问去你个“为什么”，你很简单的回答我说：“因为我们是朋友啊”。你或许不懂，那时的我除了我自己，谁都不信；我已经很久一段时间不去相信任何人。但是那一天也不懂为什么的，我决定相信你这句话，认真的去认识你们。结果我没有后悔我的决定。

当我们在一起的时候，我总喜欢听你们谈话。而我老是喜欢装傻，让你们以为我没注意听你们说话。听着你们谈话有时觉得很好笑，也让我明白了很多事情。有时和你谈话你总是好像知道在什么时候说一些，让我去深思，让我觉得好过一点的话。所以很多事情我都放心告诉你。你是我众多朋友里，我会毫无理由的去相信的一个朋友。

风，雪，狂

五旁晚膳大雪飘，
夜遍雪，冷透骨。
寒中彻雪，狂战百回，遍体白雪，狂笑无限乐；
冷中对饮，天南地北，胜逍遥；
曲终结，人终散，唯夫心足意满。

Of you, Of us...

Time and again, I'm at this point, thinking of you, of us.
Time and again, I'm acting the same way, burying everything, trying to pretend there's nothing between us, hoping you'd be happy

stupidity? maybe...
but I have no idea how it hit me...

奇妙人生 之 网游记

网游赤壁，周游列国，打架闹事，无所不干，沉静计算，无可避免；

数尽所有，唯一值得回忆的，只有在“亚洲讨伐军”的日子最难忘。想回以前大家跟着Mojo，Macy闯遍赤壁，谈天说地，无所不闹，无所不干的日子，最怀念。

人长大了，赤壁的日子慢慢成了过去，渐渐的被遗忘在我们记忆的某个角落；偶尔回想以前赤壁的日子，怀念下也不错。

朋友家人都说我玩游戏太疯、太入迷，我说他们不了解。在网游；认识朋友，很简单；制造敌人，超简单；但是要认识到谈得来，不期回报帮助你，不计算你反而还提醒你，吵了架也能很快和好的朋友是非……常……难……的事，也不是一朝一夕的事。就像“响起号角的孩子”里说的，赤壁（或任何一个网游）里，人来人去，凡走过必留下痕迹，凡待过必留下记忆。种种赤壁的往事无法重现，也因为这样才值得珍惜，回味。

义勇军，我最后一个亚洲的兄弟，的离开提醒了我：人总不能沉溺在虚拟世界，还有个真实世界等着我们去体验。那天，我学习了重新面对真实世界，我学习了不再躲在虚拟世界里。但是有生之余我偶尔还是会想念赤壁大家一起疯狂、一起打副本、一起闹事、一起谈天、一起为军团拼命的开心的和无忧无虑的日子。



逍遥清风　2010年2月3日 记

午夜

午夜回窝举首望，
漫天乌云覆星空；
回顾四处，寂静；
清风不在，秋夜不复，
逍遥依旧，唯夫独孤。

清风夜曲

清风吹，琴声飘，
深夜奏曲无人闻;
明月照，白雪飘，
展望万里无人烟；
独自徘徊至晓天，
逍遥独孤再现世。

逍遥梦夜

心情沉闷，举头一望，
晴空万里，逍遥情胜平日；
明亮半月，似笑尘世恼；
广阔星空，星光优似近手间。

我们的友情

5年前我在中六遇到了我这一生最好的朋友们。San一句真诚的“我们是朋友嘛”让我结识了他们。他们给了我最真诚的友情，让哪个孤僻且难交到朋友的我尝试到被朋友关心的温暖，认识他们的我不再孤独，也让我享受了我中学生涯最美好的一年半。

认识了他们，我学会了很多东西；学会了享受美味的食物、学会了享受漂亮餐厅的气氛、学会了对人处事的道理、学会了每个人都有不想说出来的事情、学会了对待女生们的态度、学会了怎么跟别人交流、学会了宽待别人、也学会了不再这么自私。

认识了他们，我体验到了拥有真正朋友的那种幸福快乐的感觉，是一种跟爱情、亲情完全不同的感觉。我们共同分享了很少人能体验到的超越了普通友情但又不是爱情的感觉；那就是知己。对我来说，除了家人，他们在我心里的地位是不可能比较的。

他们，就像是我第二个家人。

05年的农历新年是我最难忘的新年，我第一次跟朋友们庆祝新年，互相拜年，最记得的就是我们在KLCC的Sushi King一起捞生的那一片时光。而从此过后几年，我们每逢农历新年不管多忙，大家都会抽空聚会和在Sushi King捞生。

毕业后，我以为我们会失去联络，因为我过去的朋友都是毕业过后就毫无音讯。那时的我很失落，整天在家里躺着什么都不做。直到我生日前几天，Song突然call我说要他们要帮我庆祝生日…听到了这个消息，我顿时有了活力，心里的失落感也消失得无影无踪。就在那年，我过了我中学以来最快乐最难忘的生日，我最好的生日礼物就是我们度过的时光。

往后几年，我们都忙着读书、做工，而减少了聚会次数。久久一次的聚会和不时的电话、网上联络让我们保持了这段真诚的友情。我们互相了解的程度，是别人无法想象及了解的。

今年九月5号San飞了，19号Yin也要飞了。他们一个去台湾桃园深造，一个去英国Hatfield深造。而我，也大可能明年就飞了，大家都各散东西了。我希望、我相信，就算我们4人之间的距离有十万八千里，我们之间的友情也不会改变，我们也能保持着联络。

Bachelor...Graduation...

Three years ago, graduation looks far away for me. It always seems so far away until my final semester started which was when I stopped my updates. All the while I have never given a thought about graduation, much less life after graduation.

My eyes were always set on two things; the stars in the night skies which make me a Trek fan and the computers that seems to give unlimited possibilities. I dreamed of getting to them and explore what lies beyond; I dreamed of creating systems which dwarves the giants. And so I focused my attention to books, internet, diagrams…anywhere where I can grab all the knowledge and understanding to fill the hunger for knowledge that burns in me since long ago. I’ve never been so obsessed on studying in my life until when I hit my first programming class. I’ve managed to maintain the momentum I’ve picked up and in the run; I studied the wonders of computer systems, understanding the working behind them and was awestruck by the ingenious solutions applied to cross thresholds in the advancement of computer technologies, all of them which I have been taken for granted all the while.

I tried my best to study, understand, and absorb all that is exposed to me. There are moments when I feel triumphant of my works, there are moments when I was paralyzed by my mistakes, there are moments when I feel friendship, there are moments when I feel lonely, there are moments when I fall in for someone, and there are moments of great disappointment that thrust me into a deepest week of my life; I tried to recover the worse and cherish the best moments and I move on.

My longing for friendship has brought me lots of people whom I call the friends and with my friends and mates, we have went through the worst and depressed moments, the happy and joyful moments which I would never had imagined I would’ve experienced has helped me through whatever that comes to me.

For the past three years,
I have been working my way up to my dream, which I doubt few have the privilege to do so
I have met classmates, course-mates, and friends which I spent my time with
I have moments of searching for a companion…

Three years, I worked as best as I could…
Three years of moments, joyful, motivated, surprised, stressful, down, depressed…
Three years, I have got myself through most that came to me…
Three years of bachelor life means a lot to me…

I had plenty of experience working for my Final Year Project. Excitement of a possible outcome, blunders that held back our process…although it wasn’t a success, but there are lessons learned, there are knowledge we will never grasp elsewhere.

All of these are part of my bachelor life, a savored memory in my life which I will always remember. Though in the end I have failed to reach my ultimate academic goal, but I do not regret my choice to walk this path where I have learned precious lessons which will guide me in the future.

Graduation is a milestone in my life;
It came and went as swift as the shooting stars,
It is the end and the beginning.
The moment my name was announced in the convocation,
I am summoned to the stage be granted my scroll,
I am graduated,
I am ready for the next journey.

3年，一个想法，一个信念

3年前，当我刚进大学时，我有个想法：
我要从新开始；从新做人，从新开始学习，从新认识别人，从新学习对待别人。

3年前，当我做临教时，我学到一个信念：
做人要不耻下问，努力就有回报。

3年间，这一个想法、这一个信念，一直陪伴我度过每一个难熬的时刻；
每当我遇到新的事情，这个想法帮我克服了我对未来的恐惧；
每当我想放弃，这一个信念就会浮现在我脑海，仿佛在给我走下去的力量；又仿佛点明了照明灯，为我指出方向。

3年间，我的想法、我的信念遇过不少的考验，挑战着我对这个想法、这个信念的坚持。

3年间
我尽量从别的立场去想一件事，
我尽量用不同的态度对待每个人，
我尽量用不同角度去看一件事情，
我尽量去学习放下一些不该在意的事，
但是回头一望，每件事都好像跟之前没什么分别，
我不禁怀疑我到底有没有贯彻我的想法。

3年间
我尽力追赶但却超越不了自己，
我眼白白的看着我的努力被浪费掉，
我很无奈的看着我的努力换来别人的冷眼，
我看着有人没有努力过但得到超越我的成绩，
我不禁怀疑我的信念到底是否正确。

最后一个学期到了，毕业论文截止日期一步步接近，
但我失去了方向，我渐渐失去对这个想法、这个信念的坚持。

在这个新的一年，我希望我可以找回我对对这个想法、这个信念的坚持，也希望大家都有支持你们走下去的东西。

祝大家：
农历新年快乐

The "Day"

Finally, after 3 weeks of loathing around, our thesis project has started. Our first problem was whether we have our SharePoint which eventually we ended up being required to meet the PIKOM board of executives(which consists of the bosses from various corporations such like Microsoft!) during their meeting at 10-12pm by Thursday at and ask the SharePoint for ourselves ==|

So there we go, we went all the way to Phileo Damansara II in PJ to meet the PIKOM committee. As this isn’t the first time that I’m attending an official, business-like meeting, though the meetings I attended in my internship days weren’t attended by so many big shots like this, I wasn’t as nervous as I ought to be.

When we arrived at the PIKOM office, we found out that we were the first ones to arrive (so much for worrying being late ==|). As the usual Malaysian-style meetings, most of the attendees were late. The meeting didn’t officially start until 45 minutes later. Those who attended the meeting were Ms. Shamini (the coach of the Intern Psychology Students previous semester), Mr. Cheong (our forever-full-of-surprises CyberCare coach and client of our project), Chairman of PIKOM known as C.J., Alex, representative from HP Malaysia, Yasmin (Managing Director of Microsoft Malaysia), and various other PIKOM staff and representative from other corporations

At the beginning of the meeting, as they were waiting for Yasmin and Alex, we were questioned for the purpose of our attendance. It was an adrenaline moment as once Shamini asked “the” question, everyone, including CJ were looking at us, waiting for an answer. We were dumb struck, stunned for a moment as we did not see this coming so soon. I recovered from the stunned moment and started answering the question while facing the CJ.

At this very moment, all I have in my mind is “I have to do this, I must answer as best as I could, I must show confidence…” With all the confidence I can show on my face, I answered
“We’re here today because we need to know if we have the SharePoint so that we know whether we should proceed on our project with it or we move on using Google.”
Silence…after a moment (which feels like millenniums), CJ nodded and answered
“We’ll see what we can do, and you’ll have to tell Yasmin when she’s here.”

Right after CJ spoke, Yasmin come in and took the sit beside him and looked around the meeting table, scanning every attendees of the meeting while exchanging casual jokes and greetings with some of the attendees. When her eyes came spotted us, she looked at us with a little bit of surprise. Catching the perfect moment, Shamini repeated “the” question and again, I gave the answer in a slightly different version while looking into Yasmin’s eyes to show that we’re serious for what we’re asking for. After that, Shamini asked a few more question regarding the deadline of our project and duration of our project which was answered by our project manager, Zaif who was obviously nervous while trying his very best to show his confidence.

After we’ve answered the questions from Ms. Shamini and Mr. Cheong, Yasmin took a moment to look at four of us, nodded and answered
“I’ll look into it.”
As the meeting proceeded, Mr. Cheong started to present the results of CyberCare’s previous project which involves the intern Psychology Students from previous semester. At a point when yasmin was asking questions of scalability of the project and whether the community project can involve adults instead of just children, they started to round her up opinions and suggestions which partly also involves our request. CJ even went as far as asking her to give us a place to work at Microsoft!!! In KLCC!!!!

She considered a moment while others were still voicing out and smiled, took a brief look at us and told them
“I’ll have to ask Tyson about this, once he said can then we can do it”

After the end of the meeting, My mind when blank, I can’t believe it is happening this way, I totally didn’t see this coming! 2 hours ago, we don’t know if we got the SharePoint for our project, we don’t know if we have a server to work with, and we don’t know where we’re going to work on our project…and now, we have a confirmation that we’ll get the SharePoint, they’ve already have a server prepared and ready for us, and the best part, we might get to work on our project inside Microsoft!!!
For this much, I must thank the few people (including Ms. Shamini and Mr. Cheong) in the meeting who helped us on our requests by giving their precious opinions which lead to Yasmin giving that much of promise to us. I truly am looking forward into starting our project.

哀悼四川灾难牺牲者

I dedicate this song to those who survived the disaster at 四川, China. May the deceased rest in peace and may those who survived live strong through their days.


Mariah Carey: Bye Bye

人格？

九型人格分析

第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使 16%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型 15%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型 13%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者 13%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者 10%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型 10%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型 10%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型 7%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型 6%

我的九型人格分析？

第一型：
你是典型的完美主義者。你事事追求完美，很少講出稱讚的說話，很多時會對自己或是對身邊的人批評。因為你對自己的有很高的標準，給自己很大壓力，很少放鬆自己去盡情的玩、開心的笑。
主要特徵：

* 內心的正確標準變成嚴格的自我要求，不斷產生自責的思想。。
* 只接受和做正确的事情。
* 在自身的高層道德和倫理觀念上擁有堅定的信念。要求自己做芸芸眾生中少數的能做正確事情的人。
* 對於那些不符合正確標準的需要置之不理。
* 在思想上把自己同他人比較：「我比他們強還是差？」同時很在意他人的批評
* 做決定時猶豫不決，害怕做出錯誤的決定。
* 在家裡，會事事操心；出到外面，會盡情玩樂。
* 有時會變成事後諸葛，在事情發生後，意識到潛在的完美可能，「想想看原本應該是多麼完美。」而感到失落。

代表人物：柏拉圖、甘地、戈爾

第六型：
你會是一個很好的員工，因為你很忠心盡責。安全感對你來說是很重要的，因此當遇到新的人和事，都會令你產生恐懼、不安的感覺。基於這種恐懼不安，凡事你都會作最壞打算，換句話說，你為人都比較悲觀，也較易去逃避了事。
主要特徵：

* 推延行動，用思想代替行動。
* 工作無法善始善終。 。
* 忘記對成功和快樂的追求。
* 對權威的極端態度，要麼順從，要麼反抗。
* 懷疑他人的動機。尤其是權威人士的動機。
* 認同被壓迫者的反抗事業。
* 對於被壓迫者或者強大的領導者表現出忠誠和責任。
* 害怕直接發火。把自己的怒氣歸罪於別人。·
* 疑心很重。
* 在環境中搜索能夠解釋內在恐懼感的線索。
* 通過強大的想像力和專一的注意力來獲得直覺，這兩種能力都來自於內心的恐懼。

Tagged

遊戲規則

A. 被點到名字的要在自己的blog裡寫下自己的答案, 然後去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題再加上一個你的問題, 仍然組成20個問題, 傳給其他8個人, 列出其他8個需要回答問題的人的名字, 還要到這8個人的blog裡留言通知對方-- 你被點名了, 被點名者不得拒絕回答問題, 完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福.

B. 這8個人要在自己的blog裡註明是從哪裡接到的, 並且再傳給其他8個人, 讓遊戲繼續下去, 不得回傳. 被點到名字的人將會得到大家的祝福, 并且所有美好的愿望都会在不久的将来实现.

1. 每年出國旅遊期望次數?
越多越好

2. 最近最鬱悶的事?
怎样达到人生目标：移民

3. 現在當下你最想念的一個人?
此人就在我眼前，何必多此一举 :P

4. 最想珍惜的人/ 事是什麼?
朋友和家人

5. 如果你是1億元彩頭的得主?
拿到才说吧

6. 你現在最想擁有的是什麼?
潇洒自在，无忧无虑的日子

7. 你最想学的外语?
我什么外语都想学

8. 過去十年你最開心的時刻?
中六时代

9. 戀人/ 老公/ 老婆/ 最好的朋友, 讓你最欣賞的優點是什麼?
很难说

10. 如果時光能倒流10年, 你能改變一件事情, 你會做什麼?
算起来很多，要说哪一件呢？

11. 你最喜歡自己哪一個部位?
从来没想过。

12. 十年以後, 你想過什麼樣的生活? 你打算如何實現呢?
清闲自在。努力做好自己因该做的。

13. 接下來最想去旅行的國家或城市, 為什麼?
澳洲/英国/纽西兰。环境清静，干净，听说人很友善。

14. 如果可以自由選擇, 你最想居住在哪個國家/ 城市?
欧洲/纽西兰。

15. 如果有個很想他/ 她消失的人, 那個人會是誰?
好多啊~都是些人渣

16. 對於現在的環境, 最不滿意的是..
太多了，不想提。总之不想留在这边就对了。

17. 想祝福的人。(自己的问题）
家人，朋友和她。

18 最想得到却得不了的事物？
清闲自在的日子。

19 当下最烦恼的是什么？
FYP~~~

8个幸运儿：珊，莹，茵，议，Angie，其他三个，谁看到这个blog就谁中奖 XD。

鯊魚

1986 年 10 月 28 日出生的人是"鯊魚"

基本習性→好勝心強、行動迅速是鯊魚特質的人。頭腦轉動得非常快，而且身手矯健、好奇心旺盛，對任何事都有強烈的嘗試慾望。但是一旦認為不可行，便會馬上放棄。另外、還有一個特徵就是他們比任何人都具有野心，追求成功的慾望非常強烈。

優缺點→不怕遭遇挫折，因此不論戀愛或工作都勇於挑戰。凡事都往好處想，就算遇到不如意的事也不會悶悶不樂是其優點；缺點是態度過於自大，傾向於太過自信。

愛情觀→鯊魚特質的人在戀愛方面屬於挑剔型，常會要求對方符合他的標準，但他也是屬於能夠給對方許多自由空間的類型。

速配職業→因為鯊魚類型者是敏捷、乾脆的人，適合講究速度及高效率的工作。例如證券營業員，能做出超水準的成果；另外也適合活用天生的運動神經的體育方面的工作，例如健身指導員或救生員。

◎適用的釣餌→鯊魚類型的人非常討厭聽到消極的言論。當他的愛情遭受挫折時順利進行時，與其告訴他「你當初不要和他分手就好了…」，不如說「你下次會遇見更好的人喔﹗」積極樂觀的話，對他們較有鼓舞的作用。

Personality Disorder Test ==|

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

恐怖 ==|

Myidk.com鑑定結果
您的精神年齡36歲
與您實際年齡差15歲

幼稚度56％

成熟度57％

老化度50％

宣傳給朋友: http://myidk.com/age.php
我的妈呀~~~精神年龄竟然与实际年龄相差这么大 ==

新年?

新年对每一个人都有不同的意义：
新年可以是“全新一年”
新年可以是“新的希望”
新年可以是“新的开始”
新年可以是“老一年了”

对我来说，新年，没什么特别意义
日子，照样过
学业，照样忙
爱情，失去目标（别问我，我还在很努力的想放下她）
家人，大家都好（这算是最好的事）
经济，还在靠着父母（绝对不是好事）
朋友，
一些不懂去了哪里
一些太忙了
一些失去联络了
一些出国了
剩下叫得出来的，十个手指数得出来
喝茶？唉！算了吧~~

每年都差不多一样，看来今年也应该不会有什么改变

我总听到一些对生活充满希望的人说：新的一年，新的希望，新的开始
那我就走着瞧吧


祝大家新年快乐

朋友啊…

我有位朋友出国深造了，
另一位好朋友为他的离开伤心落泪。

他，
是我中四到中六的同班同学，
是班上少数对我孤僻的个性没偏见的同学；
他，
是我另一位好朋友的男友，
是她的依靠。

我只能祝你一帆风顺，学业有成。

她，
是我这生人交到的少数好朋友之一，
是少数我可以毫无戒备谈话的人，
她，
因为失去依靠，对未来的路失去信心，
为他们以后难以见面伤心，
为他们之间的一些问题失望，
为他的离开依依不舍至落泪。

我，
只能安慰你，
希望你能早日放下难过的心情，
只能鼓励你，
希望你能勇敢的面对未来的路。

女人最想要什麼？一篇很棒的童話喔！

年輕的雅瑟王在一次與鄰國的戰爭中戰敗被俘。

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如果不答應這個條件，就要被終身囚禁。

她的問題是：「女人最想要什麼？」

這個問題恐怕連最有知識的人也很難以回答，何況年輕而涉世未深的雅瑟王。
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晚餐...

今天老爸心血来潮，竟然带我们去沙登吃豆腐羹。过后才告诉我原来他想补庆妈妈的生日。就这样我么全家人浩浩荡荡的去了沙登旧街场吃豆腐羹。

那间餐厅还是和以前一样，迟到了就人山人海。坐下来点了菜后，我们才后悔坐在冷气区里。因为里面坐满了人，大家又有将大声喊将大声，我们坐在角落罢了都被吵得很头痛 ==||

但吃了那绝对无法忘怀的豆腐羹后，这一切都是值得的。我一家人好久没有轻轻松松的吃一餐了，以前总是匆匆忙忙的吃了就走，一点都不享受。所以这次是难得一次的晚餐，因为老爸心情出奇的好，大家也吃得相当高兴，也没有赶着吃赶着走（豆腐羹的力量真不赖！！）。值得一记得阖家晚餐。 :D

假期…

假期过了一个星期， 但我还是放不下她。我不动Friendster和 MSN，也不再去看她的部落格。因为我害怕，我害怕万一我见到她的名字、看到关于她的东西后，我又会想起她、想念她、更加放不下她。我是个善忘的人。但是想要忘记她、放下她，真的好难，好难…

Gathering @ 22 Sept

This round gathering, there’s only 3 of us. We originally planned this to celebrate Song’s birthday. But unfortunately, he wasn’t free today. Without Song, things get quite quiet as I’m usually the listener coz I do enjoy listening :P

After picking up San, we went all the way to Cheras Leisure Mall walk around, while I was appointed the task of figuring out where we should have our lunch ==| Finally when I can’t reach a decision, Yin gave me two choices: 1.Chinese food at Dragon Restaurant; 2.Western food at Deli France. Since I was tired of eating western food lately, I picked the first choice. What I didn’t expect was Dragon Restaurant is a high class Chinese restaurant and High class = expensive!!! The girls gave a very high verdict on the 小笼包 and the ramen, and I do like the food there, it’s fantastic. Especially 小笼包 which I can say is extremely delicious XD

We took a little moment chit chatting in the restaurant. We chat about lots of stuff some laughs and well, I’m mostly the listener again J. We left the restaurant when we saw there were more people coming in. We decided to go for some arcade game. I wanted to play para-para but I arms still hurts since I played it 2 days ago so I gave for fearing I won’t be able to drive later ==|| We played some games, have some fun time and then go for some place for some drinks.

One our way to Mong Kok Restaurant, the girls went in some shops to look around and I took the chance to find a present for Janice. The girls saved my headache by giving me a hand on that as I’m not good at picking presents :P Then, we picked up another present for Song’s birthday which I won’t mention at the moment :D

Finally, the girls got tired and we march all the way into Mong Kok, took some drink, chit chat, jokes, laughs, photos and we took off around 5.30pm as I need to attend Janice’s birthday party later at Millennium Square at PJ and I need to send the girls back home, safely :P

Meeting them again has certainly brightened up my spirit as I was quite down after those chain events during my exam period and study week. I appreciate Yin for comforting me after I told her those events and their company for the day. It keeps my mind off those events. I’m glad to have these friends.

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失去她...

昨天，我和KC聊天。谈话中他告诉我，她有了男友。听了后，我傻了…我问KC多几次，问他是否她自己承认。每当KC答“是”，我的心就像被什么东西狠狠打一下。挂线后，想了很久，终于拿起了手提，send了个短讯问她。搞了整个半夜，她都没有告诉我KC说的是否真的。我怎么问也问不出来。结果我就告诉她“如果不想说就别说吧”然后就专心温习。我还有一丝希望KC说的不是真的。

我就抱着这个希望，直到今早。十一点半，她终于回讯给我。短讯中她告诉我KC说的是真的。我顿时觉得我的心掉进了无底深崖；我觉得我失去了方向。中六毕业后以来鼓舞我努力向上的力量、开心的泉源消失了。我失去了向前走的最大动力。过后的一阵子，我根本不能专心温习；就这样望着笔记，心里不断地想起她。和朋友吃了午饭后觉得心情好了一些，就继续温习。但我一静下来，脑海中就想起那件事。最后我只有拿出MP3把声量开到最大来听才能专心。

回家的路上，我一边驾车，脑海中就一直闪过每一次我想表白却又不敢的时刻，同时我也想了很多事情。我完全不知道我该怎么办。我下了一个决定，我决定把这伤透的心情先收藏起来。我要等我的大考过了后，才让自己慢慢的发泄…

路，是必须走下去的。但从此以后，我将不再会是从前的我…I will go on without her, but I will never be the one I used to be。但要放下她，就要看我自己了。那就留到大考后才慢慢来吧…

SMKSS Music Club 2007

Busy Days

Its real tough semester ==|| just for these past 2 weeks...5 exams, 3 assignment deadlines!!!

When I thought I can finally take a breath, I look at the calendar and OMG!!! Its week 10~~~!! 4 more weeks from finals!!! Great, now I have to start my revisions for my finals as planned. When can tale a break~~~

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A Micro Vision

The Hopewell family was first on their block to buy each new product. They had even brought home a robot-though Ed Hopewell got his money back when the Bulatron summoned the police every time he came home late from the office.
Their latest acquisition was the Intelligent Processing Superluminal Integratron, billed as "the very last computer you'll ever want to own." The small black box now sat on the table next to an odd-looking helmet. Deciding not to wait for his wife to return from driving the kids to school, Ed flipped up the screenand donned the helmet. A small spot of laser light appeared.
"Hey!" Ed exclaimed. "It actually works!"
OF COURSE, intoned an androgynous voice.
Ed stared at the machine. "Who said that?"
I DID, answered IPSI. I AM DECODING YOUR BRAIN WAVES.
A little nervous now, Ed glanced down at the box and noticed a small red button. He pushed it.
AH, YOU HAVE ACTIVATED THE TEMPORAL RELEASE, IPSI recited. IN LIEU OF ORDINARY ELECTRICAL SIGNALS, MY SUPERLIMINAL PROCESSOR USES TACHYONS, OR PARTICLES THAT TRAVEL FASTER THAN THE SPEED OF LIGHT. WHATEVER TRAVELS FASTER THAN LIGHT ALSO TRAVELS BACK IN TIME. MY SP, THEREFORE, WILL ENABLE ME TO ANSWER QUESTIONS BEFORE YOU ASK THEM.
"That's impossible," said Ed. "What if I want the answer to-"
FOUR, the machine intoned.
"-two plus two," Ed finished. "Well, if-"
IF I AM SO INTELLIGENT, CAN I COMMENT ON THE COMMODITIES MARKET? CERTAINLY. YOUR INVESTMENT IN SOUTH AFRICAN OSTRICH FEATHERS WILL BRING MRS. HOPEWELL A TIDY PROFIT.
"Mrs. Hope-"
AS YOUR BENEFICIARY ... YOU SEE, MR. HOPEWELL, MY PROCESSOR HAS INFORMED ME OF YOUR IMMINENT DEMISE.
Ed sat frozen in his chair. "My immi "
THREE POINT EIGHT-OH MINUTES FROM NOW, YOU WILL PROCEED DOWN SYCAMORE AVENUE. YOU WILL DRIVE INTO THE PATH OF A LARGE TRUCK WITH FAULTY BRAKES.
"But it doesn't have to be that way!" Ed cried.
THE UNIVERSE MAY AT TIMES BE RATHER UNPREDICTABLE ON THE SUBATOMIC LEVEL, BUT IT IS QUITE FORESEEABLE ON THE LEVEL OF DIURNAL EXISTENCE. YOU WILL LEAVE SHORTLY.
Tearing off the helmet, Ed got up and disconnected the machine. Why should he listen to the ravings of a pile of silicon?
Still, it's never a good idea to tempt fate, he thought as he drifted out to the driveway to check for rain. He would not go into work today. No, he would spend the day tending to nice, safe chores. Settling himself behind the steering wheel, he began a mental list. "It's a good time to get those screens up," he said aloud. "Maybe paint the porch," he added as he turned the key in the ignition.

RICHARD GRIGONIS

Her Birthday Celebration

Wonderful Night

Here's the day…I was looking at the clock the whole day, waiting for 6.30pm to come. I did some housework; fetch my little brother for badminton class and went for bath. Then I just simply pick a novel, waiting time to pass which every minute seems like a century =_=|| When the clock strikes 6.10, I went for preparations…clothes, tickets, etc…and messaged her before I got in the car. And the whole process goes on with my parents keep nagging me of watching out at night (which I know they’re worried at my safety). After she replied, I fetch her up at her house and I drove all the way to KLCC.

I decided to try out the SMART tunnel to see if the traffic is really as smooth as I was supposed to be and yup, I managed to get near the KLCC entrance in 10 minutes where the traffic starts to turn bad for a while before I drive into the car park. Despite of the traffic congestion in town centre, I have to admit SMART tunnel did a good job on smothering the traffic which saves us a lot of time.

We went for a half hour pre-concert event which turned out to be some interview on tonight’s guest conductor: Paul Daniel. Because it was just only the few of us, instead of talking on the stage, they came down to the audience seats for the interview which is more like a chat where Paul Daniel tells us about his past experience and occasionally some jokes. After the event ended, we walked around the ground floor chatting, waiting time to pass.

Then we got into the MPO hall again for the performance. The performance goes very well. The first performance was Richard Strauss’s Till Eulenspiegel Merry Pranks (Op. 28). The Second performance was Felix Mendelson’s Piano Concerto No.1 in G minor (Op. 25) played by Steven Osborn and the last performance was Brahms’s Serenade No.1 in D (Op. 11) which, although it’s not meant to be…a symphony. I especially liked the piano concerto played by Steven Osborne and only after the performance, do I now why she loves it.

The idea of asking her out for tonight is to let her enjoy the performance, relax for the night, celebrate her coming birthday and etc. Through out the performance, I can see her happily listening at the music played by the orchestra and enjoying the piano concerto which she loved so much. And that’s the most important thing. I’m glad to see her enjoying the performance. After all, the whole thing is about making her enjoy the night performance.

Friday Night

next Monday is a special day for her...her birthday. I was scratching my head since last last week, thinking what kinda surprise i can give her...finally, orchestra is the answer. So i flip through the 06/07 MPO calendar and tada...MPO series right at this weekend which i recalled she didn't managed to get tickets for that.

I decided to go today, concerning of the ticket availability, her availability and most importantly, possibility of maximizing the surprise :P but when i reached there, only then i found out they've got plenty of spaces ==|| should have gone tomorrow...but never mind, when i asked her for that performance at Friday after i confirmed the availability, i can hear that she's quite surprised (satisfied~~~ XD) and took her around an hour or so to give me a reply and i'm wondering what caused that *hmm....*

While waiting for her surprise, i went "treasure hunting" at Kinokuniya and very satisfactorily hunted few books before her reply comes. I admit i was a bit nervous of her answer...lucky me, she can make it XD so I got to MPO at once to get the tickets and went all my way to Borders at Times Square for some relax time :P and i am looking forward to this Friday :D

母亲节...

昨天在家里闲着没事做，就跑去附近的Endah Parade走走，也顺便找个母亲节礼物给妈妈。走完整个商场，结果买了一双耳环和一条项链…为了佩耳环和项链的颜色，我把店员搞得团团转还找她帮看 -_-|| 没办法啦，本人很少买礼物给女生，就失败到连我妈喜欢什么款式的项链首饰都不懂，所以只好请店员小姐帮帮眼，找最好看得啦…

过后，我决定再买些其他东西来掩饰，以免让我那大嘴的小弟四处广播我买的礼物，破坏我准备好的惊喜。结果我就买了两本漫画，在把礼物好好的放在装漫画的袋里。回到家后我才发现，我满以为我还没买的漫画竟然是我在考试前买的那两本！！！气煞我也 >.< 不过也算了，反正之前买的那两本不知给我二弟拿去那里了，就拿来当收藏。

Last Subject!!!

Finally~~~ my last subject of the whole scary horryfying test is right here. After this, i'll be free for 3 weeks!!! Cheers~~~

April Gathering (2007)

It’s two months since our little famili gather up. Meeting them again is definitely happy as I’m getting quite in a bad shape and sort of loosing hope on certain stuffs these dayshow should I put it…some times, tiredness and unco-operating group mates does make me feels so...there are sometimes i even think of suiciding…in this kind of time, the happiness of meeting these close friends does motivates me …I’m not that negative as I was the days before I met them.

This time the one who is late is…caused by the late-begin Vista Launch at my uni’s FICT….guess it’s because of those big shot VIPs(so-called)…I sped all my way to One Utama. Which I’ve never been to alone…and thanks to Kilmasis, I’ve been able to get there :P Because I was so “dismantled” these days, I don’t even knew that I went to the wrong cinema…instead of going GSC, I went all my way to TGV waiting and ended up rushing all my way to GSC when they arrived ==||

After movie, we’ve decided to go for dinner at desa sri hartamas. Guess what we had for dinner? Korean food~~~ XD and it tastes good!!! We ordered some kinda pork hot pot, wine grilled BBQ pork and a stewed kimchi…that was a very satisfying dinner…great food, nice environment and most importantly, chatting with these closest friends of mine I would’ve ever got in my whole life…fantastic. Thought it was the first time I eat Korean food but it doesn’t tasted weird (like what my other friends told me). Instead, I love it and the credit goes to the girls who recommended it.

After dinner, we walked around desa sri hartamas, exploring what restaurants they have in that area and we found a club…SODA…took some pictures there, then we walked around, took some Italian desert at MG's cafe. There's a very beautifully designed fountain at the inner dining area, so we decided to take a photo there...and i accidentally hit one of those pots into the pool when i was rushing to my position ==|| after the camera finally clicked, we all look at the pool, with the pot floating in it and we laughed while i pick up the pot, pour aff the water in it and place it back to its assumed-original-position :P

later on, we went to Starbucks at Times Square for some drink. There was a terrible traffic congestion when we were almost reaching Times Square so i took a turn, thought that'll get us to Times Square faster but instead, we ended up taking a big round into Times Square.

When we leave I have to ask song to fetch the girls home as I had broke my promise to be back at home at 11.30pm…if it wasn’t that late, I’ll do the fetching no matter how…well, luckily Song drove his car.

The pot i accidentally bumped into the pool :P i picked it up and the girls took a photo of it "to remember it" :D

yeah~~~this was the dessert we took at...

tada!!! MG's cafe XD XD XD